to work on her
Ask a question. Give her something to work on her.
:- Doug.
What did I assume?
What did I, do I, seek to assimilate?
What is my role as lawyer, counselor, human?
:- Doug.
The cross exam is
Who are you?
Whom did you become?
Why? Why again?
Why not?
:- Doug.
The evidence is in; it says I believe:
That to suggest a call to make
Gets us further down the path
Than shouting “Justice for the Dying!”
That I do not know anyone’s final best
And that I feel disappointed in myself
To not have gotten it all
:- Doug.
A rap across my knuckles
Yet training wheels for the next times:
What little I did in the face of
What I did not do and
The way her dying was deadened
:- Doug.
Well now. It must have pinched deep in my innards, to have me writing two poems! Such a pinch is a signal to look, perchance to change. This is gouging with the pen—more painful than a scalpel! And messier.
:- Doug.
Work poetry, work!
slash at poet’s fat and muscle!
pour in gravel spinach and splinter!
:- Doug.
If art creates something
wasn’t there before
and if people leave a meeting
with something no one carried in
then of course meeting is art
:- Doug.
Often it is this lawyer in the fog
first the course of study
devise the special testing questions
What was my role in this tragedy?
Was it a tragedy? For whom?
What did I fear?
Why did I hold back?
Did I uphold my values?
Values come easily to pen
but will I?
and did I?
Wrestle with that angel
though I know he prevails
and I may get only a new name
yet I want to be aware and there
Maybe there will be
a recognizable me
on the other side
or maybe something larger something smaller
:- Doug.